Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Post-Pop Culture

The older I get, the more I realize how ridiculous pop culture really is.  Now that I realize this, I have to ask myself some questions.  Is it because I'm older?  Am I becoming my parents? (horror music in the background) Is it because I'm more educated?  Have I lost touch with how to have fun?  Or is it just who I am now?

When I was younger, I was totally plugged in to pop culture.  I watched all the coolest shows, listened to all the latest music, and yes, even wore the latest fashion.  That's right, I had some Skidz back in the day.  I also went with the mullet and the round sunglasses that flipped up like Dwayne Wayne's from the show A Different World. I even tried sporting an earring in my left ear to mirror that of George Michael, because I had faith!

In the 90's it was all about grunge.  I had all the albums - Green Day, Nirvana, Sound Garden, Alice in Chains, watched all the videos (back when MTV still played videos), went to the club, got my drink on with all the co-eds at college, watched all the popular TV shows like Friends and Will and Grace and The Real World back when The Real World was the only reality TV show.  I was totally immersed in pop culture and I loved it.

Fast-forward to 2010.  Now I stand in line at the grocery store and I see all these magazines about who is dating who, who had who's baby, and I just don't care any more.  Not only that, but I think, "who in the world gives a rats ass about this stuff?"  Why should I care about some star's life?  I see movies like "The Social Network" and I think, "why on earth would someone pay $10 to go see a movie about the guy who started facebook?"  That looks like the dumbest movie ever made.  I saw a magazine cover the other day that read, "Get beautiful in 5 minutes!"  Do people really believe this mess?

It's not that I don't pay attention to pop culture and I'm like some old miser living in the forest mailing bombs out; it's just that I don't care about it any more.  I still know what's going on.  I read the news, I know who is popular, I know what movies are out, etc.  It's just that it is no longer a part of me.  It's not who I am any more.  I don't let the world influence me as much as I used to.  I define me, not the world and pop culture.

The older I got the less and less I payed attention to pop culture.  Kids, work, house, cars, church - all these things became important to me.  I also started to mature (finally).  Then I started realized what a dumbass I was back then!  Maybe that's it - maybe I just don't want to be that person any more because I realize how incredibly stupid I was; how immature I was; and how many dumb decisions I made.  I don't want to be that person any more.  I want to be a man - a real man.  One that stands up for his family; one that fights for what is right even if it costs me; one that is a great father. You see if I'm going to be all those things, I have to let go of who I was and become a man.  Because a real man doesn't run when the crap hits the fan.  A real man is left standing when all else has fallen down.  And I can't be a real man if I'm hanging on to the boy that I once was.